When I think back at my childhood, I remember feeling insecure, worried, and anxious. There were times that I wasn’t sure if my mom was going to be able to make the rent after she remarried and we lived in an apartment.
And after my mother divorced a second time, and we moved back into my grandparents’ home, I had a difficult in overcoming my fears. As a teenager, I had thought that we’d moved on and that I would have a new start in life, but when we moved back in with my grandparents, I lost my friends and had to start all over again as I attended a Catholic high school while the kids I knew at my grandparents had gone on to public high school.
For that last year in the apartment, there were some rough times that we all went through and I think back at them and am so happy that we made it through okay.
I felt so insecure in where I would live, who my friends would be, and how we would get by as I often overheard my grandfather and mother talk about how to pay for my tuition.
And now, as an adult, some events I’m living through are bringing up some of my fears of insecurity. With the coronavirus raging throughout the United States (there were 4 million new cases just in November 2020) and having been laid off back in the summer, I’m one of millions who has started a new job and am working remotely.
What I’m focusing on is doing the best I can under extremely difficult circumstances.
And what about you?
When you’re struggling and going through a difficult time, how do you handle the stress, fear, and insecurity?
Do you try to repress how you feel? Or do you take time to work through your feelings?
What I’ve learned is that trying to ignore (or pretend) that everything is okay, doesn’t work. My fears come out in my dreams and I start doubting myself.
What I’ve learned to do is to embrace my insecurity and to be open and honest about how I feel.
You are not alone in struggling with feelings of worry, anxiety, and insecurity.
The challenge is that many hide how they feel, but if you take the time to admit how you feel, you’ll grow in ways that you might not have thought possible.
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